Memories of madness

Memories of madness,
Devouring me alive.
Neurotic love for hope,
Crying for their deaths.
Twisted delicious enjoyment,
Breaking me alive.
Echoes of coping,
Numbing my thoughts.
Records of paralysis,
Inconsistencies of mine.
My whole identity, 
Barely held together.
Temptations every corner,
Corrupting my mind.
Desiring my completion,
Requires limitless effort.
Memories of madness,
Devouring me alive.